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IN CASE OF ABUSE, BREAK GLASS

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In fact, in case of injustice break glass – in case of bullying, in case of anyone trampling you or attempting to, or harming you or attempting to, or slandering you and whom you love or attempting to, or doing anything that causes your spirit to recoil in horror/sadness at their intent against you – break glass.

BREAK that glass inside your Self which contains the courage of YOU.

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I went to court today and justice prevailed.  I thought ‘Justice prevails!‘ was a line in a movie – you know, a fantasy in a film, but it happened:  it happened for me today.

I am relieved and grateful.  I know it doesn’t always happen ‘right’, I know results aren’t always ‘right’ – not even ‘right’ is always ‘right’ to two different people, but a reasoned and sought after result occasioned from my attendance at court today.  I had to allow an unfounded, unjustifiable order against me exist for that result to occasion, but it was called an ‘agreement’.  I thought, ‘Sure, call it what you like.  Life itself knows what has passed here, my Soul itself knows what has occurred; by all means, call it what you like.’  

Therefore, I want to express today my will, my earnest earnest will, that in case of anyone mistreating You, who You are, Your Self, I urge and recommend that you BREAK that glass box of self-doubt, fear, anxiety at how to turn things around, which houses your TRUE COURAGE, and let that courage out and let that courage bring you to the steps before the house of justice.

I don’t deny I was tired and worn down in my pursuit of righting the wrong against my son and me, in gathering evidence, writing to the court, typing, copying, collating – having to beckon justice over to my corner to view a wrong happening:  it affected my health and my wellbeing to learn what hate was housed in the heart of someone of my own blood; yes, it rattled me, it truly did, but still I could not NOT act.  I initially did not want to act.  I had to be encouraged into acting by someone who loves me and was concerned to see someone abusing me.  I was willing to let the abuse happen – I mean, hey, this is family.  

But really, deep inside, I was not willing to let the abuse happen.

And nor are you.  

And you know it.

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For things to be corrected for my son and me today, has inspired me.  Tonight before sleeping I wish to post to all who chance by my words here, in whatever part of the world you be, reading this – I wish to urge that if abuse is happening to you, wrong or harm or anything affecting your equilibrium on this planet:  do what you must to cease the wrong against you.  Break that glass of fear within, pull out your courage and armour yourself with it.  YOU HAVE COURAGE INSIDE YOU:  PULL IT OUT.  Head down and into the war.  

I wish for you, justice prevails.  But you just have to, have to, try.

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Copyright Noeleen&Daniel 50/50

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69 thoughts on “IN CASE OF ABUSE, BREAK GLASS”

  2. Sue Dreamwalker

    Noeleen When you have TRUTH on your side.. You are always the Winner.. Well done… I read this a while back on my phone and commented and it failed to register and have been absent for a while since so Im catching up again.. … Thinking of you…. Hugs Sue xxxx

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  4. Remy

    Yes! I AM BRAVE…

    Allow it to become a mantra of you must, until you feel the truth of it. We can only be justified in our anger if we DO SOMETHING!

    I love the analogy of shattering glass… It does sometimes seem to take a breaking inside to overcome abuse. Congratulations on your and your son’s victory… And the strength to find your own courage.

    Blessings~ Remy

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Thank you Remy. Yes, need to feel the truth of it more. ..
      Ah, the shattering glass I could clearly see – utter shattering, reaching inside yourself & pulling out that super strength.

      I appreciate you coming by :)

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      It is indeed difficult to stop it, Renxkyoko, because they who commit it believe they have a ‘right’ to behave that way – they have a ‘reason’, a ‘purpose’, a ‘need’; not merely a will to do that to someone for the motives that fester in their heart like maggots feasting on the illusion of more flesh to devour,
      but really eating themselves,
      with fervour.

      Thanks for coming by. You’ve been busy travelling, hey… LUCKY :)

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  7. viveka

    Noeleen, you’re my superstar … well done and I’m on your side – any kind of abuse should happen. I have written letters too – about other things and I have always been heard and my issues have always been solved in a proper way. If we feel things are wrong should we follow our guts.

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  8. mybeautfulthings

    I feel so proud of you for how you have stood up for yourself and for Daniel.,
    Your piece on ‘I am’ reminded me of an exercise I used to do with my pupils and which it is worth all of us doing from time to time.
    They were to write ‘I’ down the side of their page from top to bottom and then fill each line with a statement about themselves, some could be facts, others feelings and others aspirations. All had to be positive and it could remain secret if they wished.
    Try it, it’s very self affirming! Go for just one in each category to start with. Good luck and again, so well done! X x

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  9. writingfeemail

    Well done and well said my friend. Often, peace must be won and it sounds as if you have earned yours at last. I’m sending good thoughts your way and hope that this is all a distant memory soon. Be well.

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  10. The Emu

    A great positive blog and congratulations on the outcome, you have obviously been going through a rough time and stress, I hope your path in life is a lot smoother now and you find serenity in your life for you and Daniel
    Wishing you both much love and happiness
    Aussie Emu

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  11. Valentine Logar

    I am so glad you stood up for yourself and Daniel and that you were taken care of. Peace is worth a little bit of scared isn’t it?

    I am so happy for both of you that you will sleep a little better and that now your journey will be a little less rocky. One more thing removed from your path.

    Val

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Thank you, Aunty Uta, true thanks :)

      Are you still in Berlin? I hope you are having a wonderful wonderful time :) I hope you’re taking some photos too, for you are treading streets I most likely will never, this lifetime.

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      1. auntyuta

        Hi Noeleen, I’ll be eighty in two years time. So most likely this really is going to be the last time that I’m treading some of the streets of Berlin. It’s a wonderful experience, true. But in lots of ways I do feel I’m a foreigner here. Which I don’t mind at all. I can enjoy whatever there’s to enjoy in Berlin as a ‘foreigner’. I just happen to still speak the local language, more or less anyway.

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  13. prenin

    Hi hun! :)

    Just caught your comments!!! :)

    Yes, every time I go out I have to force myself to open the door, voices in the hallway scare the crap out of me (MANY bad experiences with the local teenagers), but I keep on ticking! :)

    The driver was Asian and they tend to ignore rules when driving.

    My mate Darrell was once forced to leave a taxi driven by an Asian guy because he was reading a copy of the Qu’ran while driving!!!

    Don’t get me started on the white drivers who drink and drive… :(

    Yeah all my shopping is packed away and they’ve lifted the Police cordon off the area which is at least SOME good news! :)

    Second comment! :)

    It’s a slow process, but I’m losing weight steadily! :)

    Yes, this screwed up sleep pattern is annoying, but I’m getting there… :)

    Burning eyes was the least of it! LoL!!!

    I’ve never fallen asleep while listening to the iPlayer before! :)

    Love and hugs to ya both! :)

    Prenin.

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  16. Chatter Master

    Hallelujah! Finally!!!!! Congratulations N’n for sticking to your rights and protecting yourself and your son. With this done, and you starting to physically feel better I await you being to do what you DO want to be doing. It’s been a phenomenal day in Australia! :)

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Love your high vibes, Colleen :) .

      Indeed I am getting physically better & while I didn’t see another spiritual challenge coming, I surely did not, it shows I’ve ‘still got it in me’. I swear, what I went through with Daniel/my own raising was ENOUGH. I did NOT envisage having to fight any further in this life. But there ya go…

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  19. ladywithatruck

    Noeleen, I am so happy for you and Daniel!! YES!!! ^5!!
    Courage, yes, isn’t strange we can so often be courageous in defense of others but so often when it comes to defending our own rights, feelings and boundaries we lose it and that is when it is most important. You just proved justice does prevail sometimes, if you don’t try then justice doesn’t have a chance. You taught Daniel a good life lesson he will no doubt use in the future.
    I cried reading your post, I know it was hard for you……..
    Hugs
    Carrie

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Hello Carrie! It’s always good to have you come by, as I know a lot goes on in your life also.

      Oh, how sweet you cried!! It was hard for me, Carrie, because it was the last thing I wanted to do – had the tolerance to HAVE to do, had the energy to do, etc, given one huge other stress I am striving to overcome (Vodka, you know). But what my message is, is that while I was willing to just let it be – inside, deep inside, I was not willing to just let it be / & it is deep inside where you do NOT in fact sit ‘ok’ with wrongs done to you; it is exactly there where also is your deepest courage – nested within that knowing it is wrong against you, is that courage…. so break that glass & bring on that courage! :)

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      1. Carrie

        You should be very proud of yourself Noeleen, you have overcome some huge obstacles. I’m proud of you should and I’m just a friend that cares.

        It is so nice to see justice done, everyday on my blog women write in about injustices done to them and it is encouraging to see good things happen to someone who deserves it

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  22. amira

    hats off to your courage. I am sure it must have been a dark road, fighting the court house. But in the end you get justice.
    Shows that if there is a will there is a way.
    Very inspiring. good luck with everything else :)

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Thank you, Amira – mindblur :) . Where there is a will, yes, there is a way. To everyone, I say bring on that strength within you – we all do have it – & do what you must to correct your sail boat back on its course because otherwise, in time, you begin to sink… sink… as wrong continues to be done against your person.

      Thank you re the ‘everything else’ – & you, in your life :) Life, ah sigh, this life…

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  23. prenin

    Well done hun! :)

    There are many injustices in the world and I have suffered many, but in the end I won!!! :)

    Now you are top of the victory podium and I love you for it! :)

    Huge hugs to you and Daniel!!!:)

    Prenin.

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Thank you Prenin,
      It’s so lovely to hear your positives because I KNOW, yes, that you have had injustice slam you up against the wall, but like I’ve said to you oft before, I in fact admire YOU that you won, & that you live your life so well – engaging in life so much every day, certainly not a victim of it. Hugs to YOU! :)

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Julie, the world is a’turning and what goes around, most certainly comes around. So my sincere warm hug & hope re your foes. You’ve got it in you, & you will surely do what you need to. Less and less, and LESS these days, abuse will not be tolerated. And mercy, it has so oft been tolerated. Blessings to you :)

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  25. countingducks

    I’m really pleased for you, and the vindication you’ve received and the courage you’ve shown. The image of breaking the glass is a powerful one and will resonate with many. Good for you

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      Thank you CountingDucks. Ah yes, breaking the glass – I can so totally see it shatter! I wish all fighting the good fight, a just close.

      You know, when Daniel & me were in Perth, there were the Mickelberg brothers who were convicted of a swindle – of having stolen 49 gold bars from the Perth Mint. I used to work in law firms, but no longer do, & worked in the very firm, for the very lawyer, who was defending their claims of innocence. They claimed a conspiracy by the Police.

      They were convicted but later all convictions were overturned (after time spent in prison – can you imagine how that felt, if you were innocent, & there you were in jail at night away from your life, your family). They appealed 7 times UNSUCCESSFULLY before this overturning. Can you IMAGINE how it felt to fight that?

      I will not ever forget seeing the lines on their faces when they came in for appointments re the case, & I never forget wondering if they were innocent or just guilty & wanting to escape jail, & I never forget feeling so much, so much as I typed away. Justice. Injustice. Like I said in my piece, it doesn’t always resolve ‘rightly’. Yet, they fought on.

      So yes, absolutely, whatever it is that is brought awry within or without by one with ill intent, you need – you just need – to correct it. Fists high in the air for all out there :)

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  29. Missus Tribble

    I understand you, to a degree. I had to accept that a care order be placed on my son until he is eighteen, just to make sure that he receives all the services that a person with profound autism needs, and so that I too could be given help (respite care, free nappies after he was a certain age, that sort of thing). My only consolation in this was that the magistrate declared me not guilty of parental neglect (with my social worker present, she stated that any neglect on my part had been unintentional; it was noted that I had asked for – and been refused – help on many different occasions and she declared that Social Services and my own doctor had failed me when I tried to obtain help for myself and my son). In spite of seeing the social worker (who was an evil bitch by anybody’s standards) having her face rubbed in it in a public gallery, the care order still grated until I realised that it is in fact neccessary to R’s health and comfort.

    Sometimes, two wrongs CAN make a right. Not often, but there are occasionally benefits to unjust accusations xx

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    1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

      What a tale, Missus T. What a horror. You would know what stress is involved in such matters then, & distress.

      That social worker – like, WHY, WHY did she ever choose such a job? Why did she get up in the morning – to do WHAT with her life? It sounds truly awful. How anyone could claim any kind of neglect in your circumstances is just insane.

      It was just she got that dressing down in the public view, but what a lot you and your young had to suffer is just grrrrrrrrrrrr.

      I admire you took the fight the whole way, I truly do. I am very happy for you, in that. You know, when children are involved, you just wonder WHY, WHY is this person like this/doing this?, you know.
      Blessings to you :)

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      1. Missus Tribble

        I remember that she once remarked on lovebites I had from a new boyfriend and she was all angry and twisted about it. since I only saw that boyfriend when R was in respite care until I really got to know and trust him it was none of the social worker’s business. I remember telling her “You’re just jealous because somebody wants to be with me while your husband is leaving you”. She looked shocked and asked me how I could possibly know something like that, but it was written all over her in her demeanor and attitude and the fact that she was going out of her way to use her job to hurt people and destroy families. I believe that she just wasn’t a very nice person anyway, but to use her bitterness about her marital problems against her clients was unprofessional and nasty.

        I am not a spiteful person, but neither my mother nor myself felt at all bad about laughing in her face as she left that court with her tail between her legs.

        Why take such a job if you’re that kind of person? I don’t know. My sister quit her college course because she simply couldn’t agree with the ethics of being a social worker caring for children.

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        1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

          No! No! Your sister should stay! But no, she shouldn’t…. I don’t know! It seems the system has lost a good person by that, and that is just sad. Too sad.

          How painful it must have been dealing with that woman. My gosh, incredible. Good for you for standing up and walking onward. But what a pick-up – I don’t know that I could have read that on her face. That was excellent! I wonder if she changed after that, even just a tiny bit? Probably not…

          Oh Missus, bloody good on you!

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          1. Missus Tribble

            Yes; the sad irony is that the way the social work system works with families and young children reminded my sister too much of what I was so wrongfully put through. She couldn’t have gone through some of those procedures and been able to sleep at night – let alone be able to look her own children in the face. She is such a good person that she was simply unable to continue down that career path.

            No, sadly the social worker didn’t change at all after that pick up (which threw her completely), but she did eventually leave for “personal reasons” and I got a new social worker who was lovely and adored my son :)

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            1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

              Oh, mercy for the new social worker! Makes me want to learn to read faces better!

              It is just truly deeply awful, your sister left in that she had conscience like that. So this worker didn’t change? Wonder what the ‘personal reasons’ were …. couldn’t sleep at night?

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              1. Missus Tribble

                Personally, I hope that I wasn’t the only parent constantly calling up and complaining about her. No matter what the complaint though, she’d lie, she’d twist the truth and anything you’d said to her (apparently I was aggressive when I ordered her out of my house one day on account of her dispicable behaviour) and her boss would just shrug and tell me that *I* was the liar.

                After the nice social was transferred elsewhere I had a truly lousy one. She wasn’t mean or a liar; just a little ignorant and vague. R was eventually transferred to a social work team for children with special needs after an assessment – for which I was profoundly relieved!

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                1. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

                  God, Missus, all of this is so much to bear. It truly is. I mean, you are trying to care for YOUR CHILD YOU LOVE, & you have to deal with adults with “issues”, but not just “issues”, rather issues that affect THE CHILD YOU LOVE.

                  You are very enduring to come through this. Truly a wonderful Mum.

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                  1. Missus Tribble

                    I did what I had to do. I fought tooth and nail to protect my son and clear my name, and then I recognised when I was unable to continue caring for him myself and arranged for him to be fostered. I regret nothing – especially when I see how he’s blossomed with a wonderful family in the years since.

                  2. WordsFallFromMyEyes Post author

                    You’re amazing.

                    It is a true love that lets be released from their embrace whom they love, to be cared for by other people, knowing those other people can serve their loved better. That is to me huge. You are wonderful.

                  3. Missus Tribble

                    I read your incredible journey with Daniel and I don’t feel amazing at all. You’ve been to hell and back for him – that makes *you* pretty amazing. You inspire people to keep on keeping on, no matter what they’re dealing with.

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